8:54 A.M.
Yesterday at the end of the business day I got into a conversation with the girls at work.. I don�t know what it is about that place but the girls seem to talk a lot of love and marriage.
I got in on the conversation, curious to find out how they knew when they found �The One.�
I�m always curious to hear how someone knew their spouse was the one. Most people tell me that they knew it from the first time they lied eyes on Mr. Wonderful and that is always great to hear considering I was hoping to find the same thing. You have more faith that it exists if you hear so many other people bragging about it.
Well one woman was telling me about the things that made her first marriage fail and it was the little things that usually give me an excuse to break things off with a guy.
I could totally relate. She said,
�It just wasn�t fun anymore. He�s too shy. We would go out and he would sit in the corner. He wasn�t very social. It�s important that the guy I�m with can stand up and take care of himself in a social setting. He didn�t want to do much of anything if it didn�t involve football, or one of his other friends. It was as if was afraid to be normal.�
I laughed. I thought back to so many guys who �Seemed� like they could hold their own but they really are too shy.
�Or how �bout those guys who THINK they are funny.�
Once again, I relate to her comment. I could rattle off so many names when I heard that comment.
It was great to hear so many different opinions about the same subject.
One thing all the girls seemed to agree on was separate savings accounts.
�There are just times when you don�t feel like ASKING, Can I please have some money so I can go out with my friends.�
I guess it�s a good idea. I enjoy my independence and that is a good enough reason not to commit, but these girls made me see the other side of the fence.
We ended our conversation on a positive note and I found myself daydreaming about silly details.
Before I left work to go pick Amy up I checked my horoscope. It told me to expect great things this weekend. �A guy that you�ve been pursuing will fall madly in love with you.�
On my way home from work I started to reminisce about times that I felt most in love. I threw on the one song that reminded me most of being in love. �My Immortal� just seems to capture a feeling and an emotion I�ve run from for so long.
It�s been at least 2 years since I�ve felt that spark�.
I popped out the cd and my radio actually caught a signal while I sifted through my cd�s. Liz Phair sang,
�Get a load of me, get a load of you
Walkin' down the street, and I hardly know you
It's just like we were meant to be
Holding hands with you, and we're out at night
Got a girlfriend, you say it isn't right
And I've got someone waiting too
This is, this is just the beginning
We're already wet, and we're gonna go swimming
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Isn't this the best part of breakin' up
Finding someone else you can't get enough of
Someone who wants to be with you too
It's an itch we know we are gonna scratch
Gonna take a while for this egg to hatch
But wouldn't it be beautiful
Here we are, we're at the beginning
We haven't fucked yet, but > heads spinning
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
I'd love for you to make me wonder
Where it's goin'
I'd love for you to pull me under
Somethin's growin'
for this that we can control
Baby I am dyin'
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you�
I�ll find love someday. I�ll find something special too. It�s just one more reason to get out this weekend�.
