11:26 P.M.
I was dreading sitting through work today and it�s a miracle that it went by so quickly.
After work I headed to Steve�s to baby-sit for a few hours. While I was babysitting I had plenty of time to think. My mind traveled through a path of sporadic transient thoughts, bouncing here and there. I was so deep in thought that Logan stopped me at one point and asked why I was making such a funny smiley face for no apparent reason.
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It was as if his poison had made its way back into my veins.
I couldn�t control it, and once it began I couldn�t turn back.
I thought about his creative endeavors and it slowly began to inspire me.
The brief fit of inspiration brought a smile to my face.
My mind was working overtime as I felt it working a mile a minute.
I grinned from ear to ear as I thought, �Well I had my moment. I got what I wanted. Now what?�
I got to thinking. There are two things I have found present in the guys who are so hell bent on not doing anything.
1. They are quick to blame their problems on others.
2. For some reason even after all of their hardships they still manage to believe in love.
What the hell is that all abooooot?
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I am not your sinner
I am not your true love
When it comes to love I�m a quitter
And I could never offer you enough
I take each moment
For what it is
Living in complete contentment
As you grant my secret wish
You glance my way
And acknowledge my existence
Everything tangible fades
As I entangle myself in resistance
I don�t follow you home
Although you beg and plead
I tell you sexual offers are not something I condone
Not trusting in where your conversation may lead
Staying where it feels safe to me
Yet allowing myself occupy your island
Offer you my sincere empathy
As you invite me deeper inside your head
You tell a story of broken hope
A life filled with gifts and sorrow
You once resolved to give up the dope
And you plan to try again tomorrow
The intent behind your gaze
Is filled with doubt and denial
You lead me deeper into this maze
Where you speak of tribulation and trials
Your hope was on the auction block
When I found you standing there
I thought your foundation was a rock
More than anything you needed someone to care
You surround yourself with petty things
As your compliments become more condescending
I preach of the hope tomorrow brings
Outside of the world you�re defending
If only every minute
I could find such hope you inspire
I would put my whole heart into it
I�d follow everything my heart once desired
You say you�re a sinner
And nothing is ever enough
You walk away a quitter
But instill a hope in love
By: Kelly T.
