2:12 P.M.
You say it isn�t your fault
And you can�t control his mouth
Tell me to be an adult
When I�m upset over rumors that come about
Walk away from the real issue
Blame it on my failure to commit
Don't tell me what to do
Wave my hands in the air, "FUCK YOU DAMMIT!"
Professionalism flies out the window
Because who fucking cares
Smothering in this sorrow
I realize I'm the only one still standing there
Agitation hits the surface
And I say I'm sick of you
I question my lifes purpose
Wondering if there is anything I can do
I can't fix this
I can't forgive and forget
I wanted to get lost in your kiss
Now I struggle with so much regret
You struggle with things you don�t know
And things I wont tell
Upset over feelings I won�t show
You realize you don�t know me so well
Disgusted and depressed
I want to lock myself away
Feelings are confessed
But I�m not the same person I was just yesterday
You can't make me smile
Now that he's taken my sun and moon
Blame it on my own denial
And say I�m jumping to conclusions too soon
Close up over pent up frustration
I say I want you out of my life
I cut off communication
And feel so much deep anger and spite
Wishes you disregard
Rumors are spread
I may be a relationship retard
But you keep trying to get into my head
Outline me with chalk
And pretend that I�m still there
Making me the talk
Amongst people who don�t even care
Watch him use love as a ploy
And me as a pawn
So much has left me annoyed
So why can�t I be happier when you're gone
I don�t know what�s worse
Giving up, or giving in
I just know that this hurts
And I don�t want to go back to where I�ve been
I�m not playing games
This isn�t any deeper than it seems
I start to feel ashamed
Denying myself the heart I only recognize in my dreams
I don�t want to hurt anymore
I don�t want to pretend that this is real
I don�t feel the way I did before
I�m not even sure of how I feel
Not ready to pay the cost
In the nightmare this has become
Loves' intention's are lost
And I drink until I�m numb
Lost in daze
A drunken twist of fate
My feelings for you fade
All of our apologies come too little, too late
I wanted to hold onto something
I wanted to believe this was something we could mend
With your pleasure, he brings more pain
And another chapter comes to an abrupt end
By: Kelly T.
