3:54 P.M.
The voicemails continued to pile in.....
Chrissy's first idea is to go out and get plastered....
She would love to help me continue on this drinking binge I have started earlier this week.
I don't care about being sober. I don't care about a lot of things...
I should let her drive tonight. I don�t want to wrap my car around a telephone poll.
I want to get lost in the feeling of numbness.
I just want to not feel anything.
read Kitty's diary again today, and I have no witty response.
I don't want to DEAL, with my problems right now. I'd love to run away from them.
I keep thinking to myself, do what ever it takes to feet better.
