3:08 P.M.
I was going through some old junk.
I had actually created a pile in my room and labeled it "JUNK."
(How pathetic is that?)
The pile adopted the label because it was a bunch of stuff that I figure I won't need anymore. Duh...
I tossed in old wild/ugly socks that I will never really wear, old gifts that have been recycled Christmas party after Christmas party, old phone numbers I will NEVER call again, old make up, old clothes and panties, along with cd's made for ex boyfriends that I don't care to see or think about ever again.
I went through the pile one last time and decided to keep some of the cd's. They were still good mixes of music.
I've been listening to the one I put together for the air force brat I dated for a few months. The mix included various POP songs from Goo Goo Dolls, Tonic, Christina Agulara, Five For Fighting and Avril Lavine.
The brat and I were great friends before we dated and sometimes I miss his friendship but that's abooot it. He was always so optimistic and inspiring. He was part of the motivation that got me back in school. I'm sure I would have tried the air force myself but they won't take me because I have asthma. He was always so good at making my problems that were as big as mountains seem like they were only little mole hills...(Obviously because he's done more before 7 am than I have done in my entire day.).
It's funny. The air force brat wrote me today out of the blue. I haven't heard from him in months, almost a year now. He writes,
"Hey Kelly, I am coming to Tampa with a friend 4th of July weekend. We should get together. I will arrive on wed night and leave on sun. Hope I can see you.
Also I hope everything is going good in your life!
Thanks for all the emails while I've been away.
Brian"
I figured he forgot all abooot me.
Hell, I'm just a girl right? Easily forgotten. Nothing unique or amazing about me right?
Well he wrote, and I'd like to catch up with him but I don't have the time to hang out now that he's finally coming to visit his brother again. My schedule is filled with school and work right now.
I wonder if he's a pilot yet? He's been training in Alabama for almost a year. He probably has at least a year left in the program?
I've been wanting to see old friends for some time now but now that I've received this letter I realize that I have little free time to spend with friends....
This stinks....
I wish Amy would come back to visit. I'd MAKE time to see her, even if it were only a few hours...I miss her so much!
