12:41 P.M.
I had strange dreams all night long.
Justin Timberlake was in most of my dreams. Talk about strange.
WOAH!
WHO-WAH!
Booom BABY!
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And then there was some strange dream I had about running into Zach. I wasn't nice to him at all. I was actually a bitch.
It was strange because we had been getting along for a while and in the back of my mind I started thinking about how he was such an asshole in Ft. Lauderdale. I couldn't help it, I was such a bitch.
We shared a cab ride and I left him on a street corner in the middle of no where. It was really no where because all of the businesses were shut down. It was like a ghost town with no people.
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I woke up wondering if I would actually do something like that to anyone. I'm not sure I could actually do it.
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I checked my messages, Zach called telling me to call him back, but once again no number. It's not like I can ask anyone for the number. JBV and Katy can't stand him and those two are the only people who we both know...
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Kitty called last night. He said he was making chicken soup. He's such a sweetie.
It's not right. I still haven't had the chance to cook for him. Does he listen to me? Nope. I appreciate the offer but I don't want to see ANYONE right now. I feel like shit. I can't breathe enough to even hold a decent conversation.
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I'm sure chicken soup would be good for me but part of me just wants a burger. I'm so tired of eating a liquid diet at this point.
I've lost 8 lbs in just a few days. THIS SUCKS ASS!!!
It has taken me months to put that weight on!
Dammit!
I don't want to be the skinny little shit at the reunion. I'm tired of all the "small fry" remarks!
I wan't to be big!
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I have a doctors appointment at 2. They may have to do xrays and stuff? Yuck.
I've only been sick for about a week and already I'm tired of it.
I want to get out of the house but the air outside is much too thick and muggy right now.
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I want to see a movie....
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I could rent one from block buster.
