3:26 A.M.
You thought I left you behind
You thought I didn�t care
Now I�m Logging online
Hoping to see you there
Finding warmth from this monitor
And comfort from my keyboard
They say love allows no censor
I�m still too young to be sure
Curl up in my easy chair
With a smile upon my face
Knowing if I were over there
I would cringe at your expression of disgrace
I can feel your expression
With each letter that you send
Hang on your every honest confession
Still holding you close, my distant friend
Through the ups and downs
You always tried to pull me through
Will you ever have what we once found
Wonder when I will completely give up on you
I send you a text message
Hoping to get a quick reply
Trying to muster up some courage
without the urge to give in and cry
After All that we�ve been through
You find I�m not everything you expected
There wasn't anything I wouldn�t do
But my heart feels cold and rejected
You were once my luster, and my glitter
You pictured me as someone I�m not
It�s you that has made this heart bitter
And your fading memory is almost all I�ve got
You�re always on my mind
I find no comfort in escape
I just can�t leave your memory behind
Wanting so desperately to believe in fate
I think of you today
thoughts become serene
But there is nothing I could possibly say
To wipe this slate clean
You will never believe in me
The way you once did
I will never build myself a great legacy
Unable to escape the feelings I once hid
You make me what I am
Yet you seem so far away
I�m your colorful secret gem
Neglected, I feel my self decay
Once running at a pace so agressive
Now you can hardly walk
You become impassive
And our correspondence becomes small talk
It�s been a long time
But I finally let the past go
Feelings so sublime
Cover the emotions we just don�t show
Suddenly I�m better
Today I woke up without a care
I took time out to write you this letter
And I no longer wonder what you�re up to out there
It�s been a long time coming
Wishing it would have come long ago
This feeling is pleasantly stunning
With so much room to grow
Now logging off line
My heart learns to accept the truth
I tell you I�m doing fine
Hoping you won�t ask for proof
I�ve chosen to want something more
I�ve chosen to right all of these wrongs
Stronger than I was once before
Accepting the fact now that my comfort zone is gone
By Kelly T.
