10:22 A.M.
I received some powerful words today... .Words that contradict most opinions of this guy who was spending a brief moment at the center of the universe...
She writes,
"Ryan B... is a do nothing waste who talks big but has never moved to fulfill his aspirations. I thought of him in high school as a politician. The only smoke is the smoke he�s blowing up your ass. He�s like Charlie in High Fidelity. He seems brilliant and wonderful until you look at what he really is. He is a kid who was once rich hanging with all his friends who used to be rich waiting for life to be handed to him."
After reading that note, the only word that came to mind for him was superficial.(I don't want to believe it, but it's not the first time I have heard such a comment made about Ryan)...I look to the dictionary once again.....
Main Entry: su�per�fi�cial
Pronunciation: "s�-p&r-'fi-sh&l
Function: adjective
Etymology: Middle English, from Late Latin superficialis, from Latin superficies
Date: 15th century
derogatory in implying lack of depth in reasoning, emotions, or character....
WOW! That is exactly what she implies in her note.....but I don't listen with the sole intent of making myself feel better about this lousy situation, I listen because I feel she may actually know what she is talking about....
I remember Charlie in "High Fidelity". That was one of my favorite movies of all time....I should watch it again today to reinforce the statement that Ryan isn't going anywhere...... EVER.
Just because he is going NO WHERE, it doesn't make me feel any better....
Sometimes I just want to help everyone... Why do I care if Ryan goes anywhere.... He won't be going with me, so why do I care if he's happy.....
I don't know what it is? Even if guys aren't happy with me I would still like to see them HAPPY, even if it's with someone else....
I may not agree with the choices they make, but if it makes them genuinely happy.... maybe that is just what was meant to be...
I should get away from this computer, I have been saying way too much lately...
But after it all, after all is said and done I say thank you to the girl with so much insight, the girl on the outside peering in...
It is always easier to see what is really going on when you take a step back...
So, I step back... I don't call him, and ignore his shallow attempt to communicate with me....
