10:39 P.M.
When something is predictable I don�t even try� It becomes like a job...It becomes routine...where I�m only there because I feel confident that I know what I�m doing, and there is a minimal chance for screw ups.....
Just ask my boss� today he said, �Hey, Kelly write up this letter, I want you to say�.yadda, yadda�.doddy�blah blah blah�� and I wrote it up, word for word. I didn�t edit the text or add my own personal touch.
I can't handle rejection....
Today I had it all figured out. I figure that I�m not going to waste my time doing something I am good at, just to have him break me down and make me feel like I don�t know what I�m doing�
I think he looks at me and sees an idiot� Just another freaking idiot� My self-esteem is lower than it�s been in a while� but at least I�m aware�. Right?
Right�.
Things are in chaos again. I won�t even make a statement to conceive how bad it feels�
Do you know what I can see happening.
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I simply change the subject.....
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