11:19 P.M.
I still can't sleep.
I can't say exactly what is on my mind because it's not just one thing.
I'm just nuts!
I'd like to tell my body that she will get 7 hours of sleep tonight. I would like to tempt her with that security, with that certain comfort but I'm just not certain I will sleep.
Last night I slept, but I didn't rest. I had dreams....
I had a dream I was dying and no one knew, and I couldn't scream.
I guess that is the worst type of dream, but lately I've had loads of nightmares.
Maybe that's why I'm tired of being alone.
I'd like to have someone to wake up next to some nights. I'd like to roll over in bed and wrap my arms around someone in the middle of the night, someone to say goodnight...
A last call....
I think everyone needs a "Last Call" at the end of the night....
A little peace of home to wrap inside my little pink heart.....
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I wish I could say I forgot you
I wish I could say I don't care
My words wouldn't be true
and you're still not there
You never call
when you say you will
you try to stall
When you speak of how you feel
brush me off
like any other chore
feeling just enough
Leaving my hopes at the door
You were a path I didn't tread
a road I never crossed
I can't get you out of my head
Long after all hope is lost
I want to kiss you sweet
and feel this bliss
sweep you off your feet
but you avoid my poisonous kiss
You know good and well
what my kiss could bring
All the secrets you don't tell
Turn me into another sweet nothing
Playing word games
and avoiding saying anything harsh
Trying not to call out your name
As you dig deeper into my hear
Crave to be the center of you world
I realize I will never be enough
Just another girl
I'm not the one you love
So until I find what I need
I will continue to dream
Planting these seductive seeds
Hoping someday you will come to see exactly what I mean
BY: Kelly T.
