12:04 A.M.
I'm up late again....
I tried to sleep, I really did.
I just can't do it.
Insomniac?
Maybe...
Just may BE!
It's making me crazy
Ok, so I called my voicemail to listen to his message again because I only caught part of it in the theater when he called.
He sounded sincere when he said that he misses me.....
he's a million miles away right now seeing his family in New York.
He hasn't posted anything exciting to his diary since he's been there, so I guess he's pretty busy up there.
I was actually surprised that he even returned my call. He's on vacation.....
I wish I were on vacation.
and Curt, he's here for another two days or so and I said that I'd show him around town, but I have to work for the rest of the week. I don't know for sure that I'll make enough time to go any where amazing...
He talks a lot about my last trip to Colorado. He seems to talk about it even more than I do. I was so busy that whole trip. I got to see so much. I did have fun though.
I try not to think about Ben so much. I even considered taking his photo out of the frame next to my desk. But it's the same kind of consideration I give to that lump of clay in the corner of my room. I can't see myself sculpting any time soon.
I didn't get too many calls from friends today. but I'm not complaining, because my throat hurts so bad and I don't have much to say.
I'm going to go try to sleep again....
