4:59 a.m.
Sleepless Diary~
Is there more to note than I�m sleepless?
It's 5 am, and I still have not fallen asleep.
I'm sitting here listening to Waltz #2.(XO). It's a song that a friend played for me in the past. He said that so many parts of this song reminded him of me. He also went on to say that I was a relationship leper...HA...
Relating too much now as he describes a girl who shows no emotion at all, stares off into space like a dead china doll....
I also relate to the lyrics that say, "never goanna know ya now, but I'm goanna love ya anyhow".
"I'm tired, I'm tired."
"Just leave me alone, in the place where I make no mistakes, in the place where I have what it takes."
Never goanna know ya now, but I'm goanna love ya anyhow".
Sure, maybe I don't TRUELY know anyone. Not even my family.
I don't know people, but I still love them.
I want to call someone that is familiar to me.
Someone I can relate to.
I want to hear someone tell me something is good.
I�m no good
I'm so detached.
I'm so exhausted.
I'm so tired...
I want to sleep in....
I want to give in,
Or give up on something....
Give up, and give out�
I want to call in and quit work!
I want to quit right now�.
I want to call someone and yell at him, for the sake of leaving me so alone.
Since I should be used to this feeling by now, I�m going to just get out the heating pad, take some advil and hope this all goes away soon�..before I have a nervous break down.
