6:31 p.m.
Diary~
Yet, one more poem inspired today....
Pulled out some old love letters
Almost wallowed in my sorrows
Tell myself I�ll do better
Just wait until tomorrow
I spent a good part of my life
Waking up on the wrong side of the bed
Battling someone else�s strife
And the dreams in the back of my head
Don't ask me where I'm at
I don't even know where I'm going
My whole life I've been up to bat
But today I didn't feel like showing
I guess I�m doing fine
Look at the smile on my face
But my parents have drawn the line
"I want you out of our space"
I don't like doing things
For the sake of getting it done
It leaves me questioning the happiness it brings
When I�m guaranteed a great big handful of NONE
Think of happily ever after
And how I haven't found it yet
I'm surrounded by bitterness and laughter
With no time out to regret
Sit in front of my desk
Thinking of so much
Putting my ideas at rest
Accepting I may have lost touch
I may have lost my mind
So confused about what I wanted to be
I can't leave my past behind
Each day it becomes a bigger part of me
Why can't I just get paid?
To write my thoughts out in pen
So you can read the story my life's made
Relating to my pain over and over again....
By: Kelly T
